An Arrow Stabs My Insides - Chapter 5

Days passed, and slowly,  me and Dana became close friends, I picked up the guitar, and got deeper into my disphoria.


I dont know how it happened, but we became inseparable. Except when it came to Marcrline. She was my sister.


I loved it. Dana would always hug me, and hook her arm in mine. When she laughed, she buried her head in my shoulder, and always talked to me.

But slowly, I was falling.Both in "love" and into depression.

Why?

Why was this happening to me? Why did it have to be me who suffered. Religious parents, with a transgender child. It killed me.


January came, and I found something out. Dana had a boyfriend.  My heart shattered, like all those mirrors ive wanted to punched,  hating my reflection.

She said she didnt want to tell me, because she didnt want to rub it in my face. It made me happy she cared.


Life when on as usual. My heart pounded when Dana looked at me, and my stomach tickled when we touched.  

But then came May.

I couldnt take it anymore. it hurt too much. Dana and her friends always talked about her boyfriend,  and I was forced to listen. it became too much.

I distanced myself from her, and she realized it.

She would ask me what's wrong, and id always give some lie, if not, a 'nothing' Soon, my life stopped revolving around her. I didnt feel the same.


"This is hell." i said. Marceline moved 5 hours away. I loved this girl more than anything! As a sister though, calm down.

Everyday, we talked and laughed, smiled and yelled. We either had everything in common, or total opposites. She was the first person to know I was transgender.

But now she's far, far away...